busier on the inside. more projects in the works; more ideas to manage, even collaborations with a few people. from the outside? only a few differences are apparent -- disappearance into the world, then return and disappearance behind closed doors.
seems that, as there is more to be done, resistance to one creates attraction to another.
+ push: the blue sky and spring sunlight beg a retreat from computers and networks. result: more work toward mastery of computing, in order to earn the money to find freedom from the dungeon of physical inactivity.
- pull: itching to go down the street and walk into a jujitsu class. which in turn engenders the recall of old memories; reviews of hapkido locks and gracie chokes now occupy a few minutes of every workout.
+ push: dodgy behavior from clients leads to study of psychology, influence and persuasion.
- pull: the discontented sex object learns to speak and seduce ;)
+ push: a desire for creative expression results in hours spent transforming concepts to code, writing a client/project management system for the business.
- pull: a recent article about smart devices and small worlds results in a mention on the front page of wired magazine's web site. i write more, draw more, and have decided to pursue acting again...
+ push: changing sexual curiosities.
- pull: starting to ponder the definitions of bisexuality versus androgeny.
almost as if the struggle for simplicity leads to complexity, the push for one aspect causing a reciprocal need for its opposite. an interesting note about the push-pull effect: this thought structure is actually based on intentional choices, both conscious and unconscious -- resistance (and sometimes failure) in one area, often contributes to successful understanding in another.
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